Owner's comeback
Wednesday, 12 December 2012 | 02:54 | 0 comments
Miss my blog. I’m doing comeback. Before
this I delete all my post because I tired reading my past story. I don’t want
to remember my past story. I just want to know what will go on in my future not
what has happened on my past. I’m a really bad daughter and heartless person.
Before this when I was 5 years old kid, I was playful and happy kid. But when I
was 10 years old after I know how all people around me treat me, I started
change. I have changed everything. Now I’m a moody kid as I tell you before.
They only treat someone with kind if that person has wealth, pretty and
brilliant. I don’t want to have that category because I don’t want to be lie by
all people by treating me with kindly. On my age 12 I got straight ‘A’ for my
UPSR and because of that I got good treat. I don’t want all that sincerely. You
what? They call me brilliant girl in that family. I have cousin who is have
same age with me. But they keep comparing my result with her. Her result is not
as good as me. So I feel pity to her because she got stressed with the pressure
that they give to her. They just know the best but they are not to best for
getting the best. I hate them sometime if they just say what they want to say
and they don’t know what others feel. I never get into second class in school. I
always in first class so, I can’t accept if I in second class or under than
that. When I was 12 I study hard to get straight
‘A’ for my exam. I woke up at 6.00 a.m. and prepared for going to school at
7.00 a.m. after that my class until 1.00 p.m. and I got rest for only 1 hour. At
2.00 p.m. I must go to my another class until 6.00 p.m. and after that I have
another 2 hours to get my time. At 8.00 p.m. I must go to tuition until 10.00
p.m. and after that I must sleep. So I don’t have time for friend, love, party,
happy and I also don’t have time for smile. That’s why I’m a moody girl.
When I got in High school I find my life. My
crazy happy life. I get many friends who are so kind and friendly at first. But
in the long time they have change. They forgot who they are. They are who they
are. They are trying to be someone else. So I make a decision for not to friend
with them. Me sitting alone at my place even Amanda is sitting beside me but I still
feel lonely because I can’t see the real Amanda is. Lonely and don’t have
friend to be shared everything. Even I have brother in this house but they don’t
know how I feel. So I was alone for ever. I never have best friend who
understand me. I don’t have partner for the rest of my life. I never be a loved
person in this family. No one remember who I’m. No one knows what I’m doing. My
mom and dad busy with their work. They only care about my little brother. They never
ask me if I have eaten or not. I go to school alone, I going back to home with Farah
but after we apart I go back home alone, I do my work alone, I sleep alone, I cry
alone and I’m forever alone. Everything alone
for a year. Thanks for them for letting me to feel how happy and sad of this
life.
When I was in Form 2 I meet my true
friends. They are sporting, understanding, caring, and love each of their
friend. The person who I said is Nur Hamiza, Alia Nadhira and Ong Phui Shan. Hamiza is my friend from my
primary school. Same like Phui Shan, I quit close with her when I was in
primary school with he because she was same class with me. But after we are in
High School she not so close with me anymore. And after a year we are friend
back, best friend. We share same interest. We all love kpop. We know the name
of every song and group even the name of the member the group. We are not so
popular like Amanda, Farah and others of my old friend. I think I feel better
with them. They are the only daughter in family same like me. After a month my cousin
changes her school. She transfers to my school. Oh what a happy year. And now I
have a partner. Now I go to school and back to school with her. I eat, sleep,
cry, laugh and do everything with her. Now I’m quit care about someone because I
know how appreciate people. All because of them. Thank you for them. Now I still
quite but not so much. And I’m kinda crazy
but not for everyone, it just for someone. I will tell everything in my life
after this. So keep reading my blog. Maybe I will cruse in this blog if I feel
bad or angry or something else. That’s all for my life.
